65,You put New Year in front of me

You put New Year in front of me
wait for me to go through it
i do not know You are on the road

You did meticulous design for spring
birds and lilies do not have been amended
they live in Your city in their original styles

i have heard all kinds of promises
they are nothing after just a while like a blink of eyes
there the whole hell turns out in full strength

birds and lilies got your special favor
ecause of the wind's speaking
ivulge Your promise to me

my soul groans under the burden
i cry to you in distress
you are here ,but i think you are stranger

who can teach me the truth
i, a mortal creation
see You from universe

You have a bone and flesh
from the smallest drop of water
my hands touch You

i live in my body
this is the inn You arrange for me
i will go to the place You wait for me

You tie a string in my heart
i feel the magical and warm pull
i know You are there

a person who is with many faults and weaknesses
through Your door
walk Your road

i neglected the help You gave me
contemned Your rules
my mind is too limited

how gentle You are, same strong You are
You cover my sins by Your love
so i cross the abyss that separate me

there is no flaw in your home
absolutely no dark inside
You are more perfect than the new-made Adam

a river runs in itself
that is a dark cold deep canyon
it wants to flow up the warm happiny plain

when i decided to listen to the lies of devil
the free will cannot save itself
had to sincerely cry for your mercy  

i live in behind Your triple death locks
i have all keys
but cannot open any door

i am a born sinner
in this faint world
even the sun turn its face aside because of disliking to see me

tree filthy spirits bother me
i am confused
went the wrong road

i see Satan show everyone his masterpiece
You stand there
wait for me to turn back

i pulled my soul from his trap
escaped the roaring lion
run toward You through the narrow door