108, my Lover

i am pierced by Satan's arrow
already incurable

my Lover
Your power is like a soaring river 
sweeps my wounds away 


my past binds my soul
as chains on my neck

my Lover
You say  the coercion and hunger are all your arrangements
i should be joyful and gambol


i praise You in hymns
my songs frustrate the battalions besieging me

my Lover
i triumph because i only look up to You
not watch my questions


someone pulls my faith
want it down to the ground

my Lover
my heart cries out You support me
let this burden leave me

 
i and evil are nose to nose
the withstanding force is same as the night

my Lover
You show me the way to overcome dangers
take me into Your realm


hence i worry about nothing
only praise You in my heart

my Lover
Your name is the fruit from my lips
Your spirit pours it totally sweet

 
suddenly inside me is silent
resounding with Your truth

my Lover
any tribulation which happens to me
is less than Your suffering

 
Your pain is for the sake of me
You care of my minutiae more than i do

my Lover
You wake me up in the morning
my eyes see You, my ears hear You, and my mouth speaks You


my life is in Your palm
You are my all reasons and aims
 
my Lover
how dare i complain Satan's symptoms
You have healed me


You saved me from death
lead me to walk in Your spirit

my Lover
no might in this world can carry me away
except Your will


that is You
You didn't let me die

my Lover
attentively i listen  to Your voice 
You say i am the doer for Your special wonderful plan


i obey my spirit's sensation
dodge calamities, so that i can pursue Your trace
 
my Lover
before i begin my inquiry
You know my want


i talk with You in tender voice
You unload my burden by Your kind hands

my Lover
i cannot depend on anything else
i trust You alone


i didn’t get talent
but You demonstrate Your glory through me

my Lover
i can't predict Your great doings
Your accomplishments are above my requests and thoughts


i know what i should do
is to present myself before You

my Lover
my whole body is transparent under Your sight
You know my thought and intention


You renew me from the inside 
with my own eyes i see my spirit's about-face 

my Lover
i didn't mishear Your words
i would like now to live as You


i want to give myself to You
but i have nothing to give

my Lover
You gave Yourself to me
----Your lover

107, my lover gave me a pair of eyes

my lover gave me a pair of eyes
and then He gave me 10,000 kinds of colors
and mix 10,000 kinds of fragrance into air
for me to breathe

the wisdom of Satan,devil and serpent
all are the toys that my lover gave to me

flowers are so beautiful
Garden of Eden beggins a cool breeze
i am going to meet my lover

106, the water of four seas is connected

the water of four seas is connected
they originally came from the same place
from the begining of the world
bearing the spirit of God
Covering the inanity and chaos of the earth

since the water was born before the light did
therefor the mother who gestated my life
must have endured the darkness of the wait

Father in heaven sowed the seeds of light
you were pregnant
that beautiful cell
through hundreds of millions years
grew into a vibrant spring

it is said
water is my mother
light is my father
Alexander believes mythes
i chase my dreams

105, God is so far away

God is so far away
i would like to know God
to visit his home
but He lives so far away

i sat on the shoulders of Quafoo
talk with the sun
but the sun does not know the information about God
just as Mona Lisa does not know her father

that day i met Satan in the wilderness
he swore in the name of love
God has no His own house
he is parasite

He lives in your heart
believe it or not
God has ruined my reputation
i destroyed the oath of love

so cruel
nowhere store belief
God is so far away

104, i look up to You

i look up to You
just prove that i am humble
because i may close my eyes not to see You
how do You prove that You are lofty

i look up to You
ust prove that the direction i go forward
because I may turn about and back to You
how do You prove that You is my goal

if blindness and leaving are my sins
my sins are very deep
is the sinner who cannot be absolved
if can You hear my prayers
please prolong the time limit
there are more sinners who need to turn around

more than one way to heaven
who repent is better to walk Your way than that who no sins
i look up to You
i know
someday i will be together with You
sit on Your right side
study the truth of love

103， so rich God's Creations are

so rich God's Creations are
how many Paradises there are
i do not know where Your throne is
because the night covered my eyes for long

the night is very dark
even the doves can can not find where I live

i dug out my eyes
ignited them as two lamps
so I have light

I found the road to the heave
it is very wide
there are many people on the road
my fellow travellers are same as i
lost eyes
however, we see clearly each other
also see the flying doves

at the gate of heaven
Mona Lisa smiles at me
my hands tremble

at that time Venus came up
bang, bang, bang
she uses her fiery heartbeats
knocked the door of heaven open

102, i go to a fancy ball

i go to a fancy ball
i found that I can not find my own
cannnot recognize either who is who
i believe the world did not change
God said there is no new thing under the sun
so it can be certainly that my vision has a problem
my heart is urgent

what problem it is on earth
what fun does the world have if no change

the normal in God
in human, it is a miracle

why did not see the eternal paradise
even the blind child
find Your seat
my heart is urgent

God said:
eyes can only play the color game
to see the kingdom of heaven
eyes are simply useless things
if you pour out the evil of your soul
vacate a clean place
I now live into it
you are urgent ,I am urgent too.
i go to a fancy ball
i found that I can not find my own
also cannnot recognize who is who